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November 21st, 2009

04:27 pm - "ALL MY BAGS ARE PACKED I'M READY TO GO" Today is my last day in California and I haven't done anything but Brad all day. And right now I can start to feel the sadness and emptiness that I'm going to be feeling soon. I'm not looking forward to saying good-bye again. I can't hardly breathe right now and I'm just writing about it. It's been a long week and I'm happy that I've been able to spend this week with him and we're officially engaged and everything. But I'm also scared because I know then next time he comes home will be the last before he's deployed and I won't see him for at most a year. But we'll be getting married when he comes home so then we can have a big wedding when he gets back from deployment. As the hours go by I feel like my heart is breaking a little bit more, I think it's a good thing just to show how much I do love Brad. and it's not good because it brings me down a lot and I'm not quite myself, and I'm not looking forward to getting on the plane and going back to Michigan. I feel bad for whoever has to sit next to me on the plane from San Diego to Denver(hopefully I'll have calmed down by then). I hate being away from Brad like this. But it comes with being with a Marine. Current Mood: sad Current Music: White Sparrows by Billy Talent

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November 17th, 2009

01:46 pm So I'm sitting in Brad's room waiting to hear something from this girl Stacey... and I've been hanging out with this girl while Brad's at work and her boy friend is a Marine. So I stayed on base with Brad for lunch and then I planned on getting off base and either going to do some shopping or go to my hotel. Well Stacey who's 17 decided to just go to her hotel after she dropped her boy friend off at work. Well fuck if she used her fucking brain. oh Kate's on base maybe I should pick her up... oh and her hotel is on the way to my hotel so I could easily drop her off and it would be so convenient. But no, she's stupid and young. So now I'm waiting for dumb ass to drive her happy ass back here so she can waste some gas and some time. fucking idiot. I'm not hanging out with this chick anymore. This is ridiculous, where's the logic in leaving me on base... we've been hanging out for the past 2 days. Well I got to go... she's probably here and I'm still bitching about her. Current Mood: annoyed

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October 2nd, 2009

09:46 pm I'm bored. there's nothing new to report. god I'm boring. my life use to be so exciting, now I just sit home a lot. I need to start going out and doing shit. Current Mood: bored Current Music: if i fell by the beatles

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August 17th, 2009

09:01 pm - The Time Traveler's Wife.... Is in fact a very interesting read, it jumps around a bit but still good. And you might want to kill yourself after... I don't know, It could just be that I feel like the Wife in the book. but anyway.... I had my appendix taken out, and fuckin hurt like a bitch... but I'm better now. Oh yeah, my niece decided to kick me in the bellybutton which is where one of 3 incisions are... that just happened like 20 minutes ago... so it brought me to tears. moving on... I hate waiting for people. Whether it be to hang out or for someone to finally come home after being gone forever. I fucking hate it. This is exactly how I'm like the Time Traveler's Wife by the way. Never knowing when or where exactly her loved one is. I'm also sick and tired of being yelled at by my family members saying stupid shit to me like "I'm milking it" as they refer to the surgery I had 1 week ago today. I believe I was out of the hospital 3 days and still in a lot of pain and they had the gull to say that to me. When today I'm lifting (which I'm not suppose to do) my niece up and down and babysitting just fine with no help from anyone else. I decided to go hang out with some friends yesterday and mind you I haven't left the house since I got home on tuesday.... so I was going nuts and my family decided to give me shit for it and then tell me to be home early. 10 o'clock hits... I'm on my way home... I get a text once I step onto my front porch saying... "where are you? you have to wake up early." NO SHIT!!!! THAT'S WHY I'M HOME AT/AROUND 10PM!!!!!!!! So I walk in the door and freak my mom and sister out... I enjoyed it. :) I'm done, I'm tired, and I'm hurting still. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Miserable by Lit

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July 25th, 2009

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June 5th, 2009

08:15 pm OMFG! I didn't ask for this what so ever. Babysitting. Worst JOB EVER!!! Don't get me wrong I love my niece, but sometimes I want to put my head through a window or a wall. Anything that can match the pain of being home with just the kid all the time. It's cool that I don't really have to get dressed, but I can never go and do stuff with her. So I'm stuck in a house with the baby day in and day out. No one in my house understands cabin fever. I hate hate hate that. My dad gets it, the one man who's suppose to mean the world to me, but doesn't... he gets it. I haven't lived with the man for 14 years and he understands me. This is fucked up. Brad doesn't answer his phone because he sleeps all day. So I never get to really talk to him. Our conversations consist of. "Hi." "Hi." "I love you." "I love you too." "I miss you." "I miss you too." "What did you do today?" "Eh, nothing." ... ... "Okay." "Well I got to go study." or "I'm gonna go take a nap before class." or "I'm gonna go get something to eat." or "Well I have to go." "Okay, well I love you good night." "Love you too, good night." *CLICK* I don't get how I am managing this shit. I'm surprised I haven't jumped out my bedroom window yet. I just keep getting the shitty end of the stick. At least that's how I feel. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Shut your mouth by the von bondies

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May 28th, 2009

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May 22nd, 2009

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05:00 pm - ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? WHAT'S THE POINT OF HAVING A CELL PHONE IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO ANSWER IT??????? I DON'T GET IT. YOU HAVE A CELL PHONE FOR PEOPLE TO CALL YOU ON OR TEXT YOU ON AND YET SOMEHOW YOU "MISS" PHONE CALLS... BUT HOW THE HELL IS THAT POSSIBLE IF IT'S WITH YOU 24/7??????? THIS DRIVES ME NUTS. I'VE BEEN TRYING ALL DAY TO TALK TO SOMEONE AND THEY DECIDED TO NOT PICK UP THEIR PHONE OR THEY'RE GOING TO COME UP WITH SOME LAME ASS EXCUSE ABOUT HOW THEY DIDN'T HEAR IT... IF YOU HAVE IT IN YOUR FUCKING POCKET AND HAVE IT ON VIBRATE THEN YOU SHOULD FEEL IT AND THEN YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THIS CRAP. GOD! MEN ARE IDIOTS! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Conflict by Disturbed

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May 21st, 2009

06:28 pm - "WHEN PUSH COMES TO SHOVE, I'LL PUT ON THE GLOVES" Not to piss off anyone... but I hate giving advice to people especially if they're just going to throw it away and have me waist my breath. I try to be as helpful and supportive as I can but there comes a time when I am FUCKING FED UP! I can only do so much advice giving and I feel bad for Matt Polley because I complain to him when I'm annoyed about other people's problems. What I don't get is why it seems like I hear the same thing over and over. I don't know. I just can't give advice to people anymore because they never really listen to it in the first place. :-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D Also on fucking facebook....aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! If I see one more fucking status shit thing saying I miss my boy friend blah blah blah I'm a whiny bitch I'm going to gouge my eyes out. They complain about not seeing their significant others over the weekend or they're away for a month for whatever reason... Listen here you little twats. I HAVEN'T SEEN MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER IN 7 GOING ON 8 MOTHER FUCKING MONTHS!!!!!! I have NO sympathy for you, and I wish people didn't post shit like that every other fucking day. Also I hate when people post new pictures of themselves everyday. How do you have time to take pictures of yourself? go out and do something than sit and try to look pretty for the damn camera. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Sympathy by Billy Talent

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May 5th, 2009

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April 28th, 2009

03:39 pm - First Dance. So I'm pretty sure that I've found the song Brad and I should dance to as our first dance as husband and wife. let me know what you think. It's Called Annie's Song and it's by John Denver. I love it. here's the lyrics you can look up the song if you want to hear it. You fill up my senses like a night in the forest like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean you fill up my senses, come fill me again. Come let me love you, let me give my life to you let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you come let me love you, come love me again. (instrumental) You fill up my senses like a night in the forest like the mountains in springtime, like a walk in the rain like a storm in the desert, like a sleepy blue ocean you fill up my senses, come fill me again. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Annie's Song by John Denver

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April 27th, 2009

10:22 pm - MY DAY OFF. *he he* I'm okay...at the moment. but earlier is a completely different story. So... my mom woke me up with a call to my cell phone saying... "will you rake out the front yard and I'll pay you $50 bucks." me. "sure." So then I get up and realize my cousin Pam is dropping off her daughter so I can baby sit.. and she can go study for this test she's taking on wednesday. So I tell Laura to write me out a check so I can run to the bank and deposit it, and go and get lawn bags for the leaves and such in the front yard. So I race to the bank, and to Home Depot... and did all that in about 25 minutes. go me! I like to drive fast at times. So I made it back home before Pam got there... As it turns out the wind wanted to be a bitch today and blow around everything that I raked up so I said fuck this shit and called me mother and told her "it's too windy." "okay." Then my sister decided to take me and the 2 kiddies out for 2 hours in the sucky windy sunny day. ABC Warehouse... sucks... they have barely any chairs and I didn't want to sit next to some old guy that was staring at me in a strange manor. Then there was an angry mexican, and I was done searching after that. Then we went to the Library where Regan(Pam's daughter) decided to screech and just be loud. There was a kids section...of course... and they had this wooden hippo that held all of the puppets and Regan started pulling them out one by one screeching at each animal as she pulled them out and I shushed her. Then we finally got to leave and go to the place that was the main event... THE PARK. But before we could I had to pick up all of the puppets Reagan pulled out and set on the floor. yay! So the park... pretty much consisted of me sitting on a picnic table until my sister said... "Kate take Jaclyn and Reagan to the top of the slide so I can get a picture." at this point I'm sweaty and wind burned and just wanted a shower and a bed... not hold a hot baby on hot plastic slides that are meant for small children to slide down... I felt like such a FA. Oh then on top of it, I was wearing a tank top the turned out to be kind of low cut, and when Laura took the pictures it wasn't until later that she told me I was all cleavage. FUCKING GREAT!! So I take Jaclyn to the top of the slide posed for a couple of pictures and slid down. Then Pam showed up to join us at the park, this is where me just resting while we watched Reagan slide on the slide. Pam used me as her practice person thing to go through the steps that she needed to study the most. Like it wasn't bad but I much would have rather gone and collapsed on the very green grass that looked like it needed to be laid on. Then we went home... and I'm not done yet there's more. Pam leaves again to go study, my mother comes home from work, my brother appears out of thin air... I never see him come in the house or leave but I know he does. Any who... Laura didn't measure some stuff out and we had to go back to ABC Warehouse. But first I went to Kelly's place of work and got my CD. So we're back at ABC Warehouse where the guy who helped us the first time talked to us again and then he said "Wow you look tired." to me. I wanted to say no shit Sherlock I fucking walked around the city of CL for 2 hours and didn't really get to rest at each place. So then I got a crappy dinner, I mean it was good just not very filling. Salad. From Buddy's. So Kelly got out of work shorty after all of this eventful day and rescued me from having to do anything at my house. So we dyed her hair and it looks good btw.....and now I'm writing this and while I have been writing this Kelly has decided to be a completely creepy person with stuffed animals making them do god only knows what to my back... and I think now we're gonna go get some food, because I'm hungry and so is Kelly. THE END. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Fuck off by Reel Big Fish

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April 25th, 2009

05:06 pm Why do people lie? Obviously to hide something, but is it really necessary? The thing that I think is funny, is that when they get caught and then try to ignore you. That's the greatest... guys tend to do this. It's just really sad that when these people get caught they either avoid you, or lie like hell to convince you that you're completely wrong. people suck. I'm done trying to make new friends, I always get fucked over somehow... so I'm done. Liars stay away from me. Current Mood: determined Current Music: I wanna by all-american rejects

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April 24th, 2009

06:24 pm - Hmmm..... so today I logged into my account on this website and this guy asks me. "hey do you want to play questions? I know it can get very personal it's alright if you say no" so I say "sure" whatever, I'm A. never going to meet this guy and B. I haven't been hit on by someone this sexy in a long time. He was very attractive. so he tells me you start the questioning. well I didn't want to start so I asked something like "what's your favorite color" he said blue... I hate blue. I'd tell you why but that's an entire different story. Then eventually he asked me if I had a boy friend, I said no, I have a fiance'. I'm surprised he didn't stop talking to me right then and there. So basically I learn his name is Jon and he lives in Troy, MI. and some other stuff but I'm not going to get into that. We were talking online for about 2-3 hours. I couldn't believe it. So then finally Jaclyn woke up and then he said he had to go. So timing was perfect. So my question to this is. Can Men and Women be just Friends that they are attracted to? I think so, and I know nothing will ever happen with Jon just because I'm completely infatuated with Brad and I can't see myself with anyone else in this world. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Lucky by Jason Mraz

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April 23rd, 2009

08:31 pm - WHAT'S THE POINT. So everyone was pushing me to get my license. So I got it. Now while I was in the process my mom was telling me that I could use her car. and it would be great. HA HA HA HA HA, that's funny I think. How stupid is this. I can't drive the car at night. I can't drive when I'm angry. I can't drive to go hang out with my friends. I can't drive in bad weather(rain). I can't drive just to get out of the house. WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT OF GOING THROUGH ALL OF THE TROUBLE TO GET IT IF I CAN'T DRIVE OR DO ANYTHING THAT I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here's the only times I can drive. Picking up food. Getting gas. Current Mood: angry

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July 28th, 2008

09:59 pm My Bradley left today for the Marines and I can't quite seem to get it together. I already miss him and he hasn't even been gone a full 24 hours yet. I'm going to try and keep myself busy and stay out of trouble while I'm at it too. :'( Current Mood: gloomy

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September 30th, 2007

12:56 pm - What's going on right now. So I haven't posted anything in a while so I felt that maybe I should now. Well I'm going to Macomb Community College (South Campus) and that's okay so far. I applied for a Disney internship, and I'll be finding out shortly if I'm accepted and If I'm moving down to Florida. So that should be cool. Just so everyone knows I will be getting paid at this internship. Everyone keeps asking me if I know what internship means, and yes I do. So that is my random news. Oh and I'm still Dating Bradley. All is well in that area of my life. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes.

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May 8th, 2007

10:07 pm so, prom is getting closer, and I'm not nervous. Some of my family members asked me if I was nervous, and I said no.... what is there that I could possibly be nervous about? It's not like I'm losing my virginity friday... lol... but you know I've been dating Brad for a while now, the nerves are not really there, I'm fine when we hang out. but anyway, I'm doing good. I'm Happy for once...yay!! Current Mood: happy Current Music: Let me take you there - Plain White T's

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